I Was Asking Questions… God Was Writing My Story!!

Hey my beautiful blood and flesh… haha I’m trying to use the words Jesus used on earth 😄
How are you all doing?

 I hope you are having your daily “Jesus meeting time.” I am definitely having mine and honestly, I have to confess something… I am falling for Him more every day. My love for Him is growing day by day.

I think I’m going to spoil Him with my love 😄 haha

And I know you were waiting for my blog—so sorry! I was completely busy and didn’t even get time to open my blog or check the status. And honestly, all credit goes to my team for renewing my subscription, and I’m really grateful for that.

But guess what? I checked the status today and I was shocked—my last blog reached 2250 readers 😳🔥

I was like:

“Wait… are you sure? Is this real, or is my WiFi just playing with my imagination again?” 😂

But honestly, I’m so happy and deeply encouraged by every DM and every reader.
Okay… enough emotional moment 😄

Let me continue before I start preaching like it’s Sunday service in my living room.

Guys, you all are ready to read my blog… but first, let me have a little complaint (hectic schedule, very important part of life 😄)

I’m not free right now, but I forced myself to sit and write. Honestly, I have become like Ghajini 😭
My memory? Gone. My focus? Missing. My screen time? Dangerous. And on top of that, I’m blind without my specs—I literally can’t see anything properly now 😭

Let me tell you a funny incident…
One of my friends was coming from the front, and because I wasn’t wearing my specs, I couldn’t see him clearly. So I didn’t even react properly to his smile or wave. He came closer and then I finally said, “Hey hi!” and smiled.

And he was like, “Bindu, you have so much attitude…” 😭

I was like—bro, who will explain my side of the story? 😂 Anyway, later I apologised and explained everything… he laughed it off like I cracked a joke. (Don’t worry, he’s still alive 😄)

Honestly, I don’t even know how I survive sometimes… I open my phone for 2 minutes and suddenly it becomes 2 hours. Like bro… what just happened? 😂

my brain have become like M-type… wow I never asked for it 😭

Okay okay… complaint section is over.

Take your cappuccino ☕… sit back… relax… I’m starting.

ONE QUESTION TO HEAVEN CHANGED MY LIFE COMPLETELY:

This is my story.

The story of one question I asked my Heavenly Father.

It was the year 2008. One evening I was playing with my building friends. It was around 10:30 PM. I was a very stubborn girl—if I decided something, that was final 😄 (not being dramatic, just giving you a glimpse of my character)

I was holding a badminton racket in one hand and suddenly… I looked up at the sky.

And for the first time in my life I asked:

“God… what is next? How long will I be here? Do I even have a good future?”

At that moment, I didn’t even realize how deep that question was. I was just speaking out of confusion… curiosity… and a heart full of questions with very few answers.

My parents didn’t really have answers for what I was asking. Even they were worried about how I was shaping my life. Being the youngest, I was often seen as the “spoiled one” in the family, and even relatives didn’t really have much hope or clarity about my future.

So I stood there with my questions… feeling like nobody truly understood me.

My friends slowly went home one by one.
But I stayed there alone until 11:30 PM. And no worries this was not unsafe or anything… back then it was a different time, and honestly, I love my Mumbai 😄

Just me… the sky… and a million unanswered thoughts.

And then I realized something powerful:

Heaven replies.

Because He is not a dead God, not an old story God, not just a historical belief…
He is a living God.

A God who listens.
A God who responds.
A God who is present even in silence.

I didn’t know it then, but now I believe something deeply:

God was already listening.

The Night I Thought Was Dark… But Heaven Was Working:

Back then, I genuinely thought I was sitting in darkness.

But now I realize something funny…

I was not sitting in darkness.
I was sitting in God’s waiting room 😄

At that time, I didn’t know Jesus was the light I was searching for. I used to talk to Him daily—but honestly, it was mostly like a complaint box:

·         “God why this?”

·         “God why that?”

·         “God everyone else is fine except me?” 😭

Basically… I treated Him like a customer care service 😂

But the beautiful truth is—heaven was not ignoring me.

Heaven was listening carefully.

And what I didn’t understand in that moment was this:

👉 My question didn’t just start a conversation… it started my transformation.

The Breaking Season (2008–2016)

Let me be honest… heaven has a very different process.

When you ask God for something big, He doesn’t always give it immediately.
First, He begins something called: BREAKING 😭

And yes… mine lasted around 8 years.

Guys… 8 years is not a season.
It’s like school + college + confusion + emotional “what is happening in my life?” phase all combined 😂

During that time I felt:

·         Lost

·         Delayed

·         Unseen

·         Like nothing was moving forward

And honestly, I didn’t even understand spiritual life properly back then. I didn’t know how powerful prayer, fasting, and worship could be. So everything felt heavier than it actually was.

It was like carrying a phone with 2% battery… and still trying to run Instagram, WhatsApp, and life together 😭😂

But let me tell you something from experience:

If you are going through a difficult season right now, your situation is not bigger than God who created you.

And I slowly learned something that helped me survive those seasons:

A simple spiritual routine changed my mindset:

·         Prayer time

·         Worship time

·         Bible reading

·         Speaking in tongues

·         Sitting quietly in God’s presence

Because when you consistently fill your life with God’s presence, the voice of your problems slowly becomes quieter.

It’s like when you’re stressed, and you finally sit with one trusted person and talk everything out—half your burden just reduces. Now imagine doing that with God.

It’s not about perfect words. It’s just about being real with Him.

And slowly, even in confusion, I started noticing something:

That small voice inside me kept saying—

“You are not stuck… you are being shaped.”

The Moulding Season (2016–2024)

Then came the next phase—moulding time.

Like clay being shaped slowly… not rushed… not forced… but carefully formed.

That was my life.

And honestly, while writing this, it feels like I’m watching a full movie flashback in my head.

All the struggles… all the pain… all the confusion… all the betrayals…

At that time, I used to react to everything so emotionally 😭
Like even small things felt like, “God this is it, my life is over!” 😂
And honestly, there were moments I wish I had that bold “Jesus-style response” like “Get behind me…” energy 😄 (half my stress would’ve vanished right there)

But today, when I look back, I don’t cry over it anymore.

Today I smile and say:

“Thank You God… now I understand.”

Because I realized something powerful:

Some questions are not meant to be answered quickly.
They are meant to change you first.

And what once felt like pain… now feels like preparation.

The Truth I Learned

One of the biggest lessons I learned in my journey is this: don’t be afraid to ask questions—but learn who to ask. Friends, family, or relatives can only answer you based on their limited understanding and experience. But when you bring your questions to the Most High God, you are speaking to the One who sees the beginning, the middle, and the end of your life. His answers may not always come instantly, but they always come with purpose, direction, and peace.

If you truly allow God to work in your life, He will do three powerful things: He will break what is wrong in you, mould what is weak in you, and transform you into something beautiful through the process. And yes… this process doesn’t feel easy. It often feels like silent prayers, unanswered nights, and moments where you wonder, “God where are You?” or “Why is this happening to me?” But in those very moments, God is not absent—He is actively shaping you in ways you cannot see yet.

This is why the Bible reminds us in Proverbs 3:5–6:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.”

And one day, when you look back, you will realize what you couldn’t understand in the moment:

He was never absent… He was working silently all along.

A Simple Real-Life Example

It’s like making tea.

You don’t just pour hot water and drink it instantly.

You go through a process:

·         You boil the water

·         You add the tea powder

·         You let it steep

·         Sometimes it even over-boils 😄

And only after all of that… it becomes something warm, rich, and worth drinking.

Life is exactly the same.

Sometimes God allows:

·         pressure

·         heat

·         waiting

Not to destroy you… but to develop you.

Because if everything came instantly, you would never grow into the person you are meant to become.

So what feels like delay is actually development.
What feels like pressure is actually preparation.
What feels like chaos is actually shaping.

Pressure + heat + time = transformation

And one day, when you look back, you will realize:

“God didn’t waste my waiting… He was brewing something beautiful in me.”

 Don’t Be Afraid to Question… But Ask the Right One

So don’t be scared to question… but remember this simple truth: who you ask matters just as much as what you ask.

Because not every question is meant for your friends.
Not every confusion can be solved by your family.
And not every burden should be carried by people who are also trying to figure out life themselves.

We’ve all been there—sitting with overthinking at 2 AM, sending messages like “what should I do?” and still feeling more confused after everyone replies 😭

The truth is… even the people who love you the most may not always have the answers you need.

But there is One who does.

👉 Your Heavenly Father.

When you take your questions to God, something slowly begins to change inside you. It may not happen instantly, but over time you notice:

·         confusion doesn’t feel as heavy anymore

·         fear slowly loses its control

·         waiting starts to feel meaningful

·         pain begins to make sense

It’s like when you finally talk to someone who truly understands you—you don’t even need to explain everything perfectly, but you still feel lighter after speaking.

That’s what happens in God’s presence.

So yes—ask questions. Be honest. Be real. Be raw. Even if your prayer sounds messy, emotional, or full of doubt—He understands it all.

But make sure you are asking the right One.

Because friends will give opinions based on experience.
Family will give advice based on concern.
But only God gives direction that actually fits your future.

And slowly, in your own journey, you will look back and realize:

“God was not ignoring my questions… He was shaping me through them.”

 Final Message to You

Don’t be afraid of your difficult seasons… we all go through them in different forms. Sometimes it feels like nothing is moving, prayers feel unanswered, and life looks stuck while everyone else seems ahead.

But hear this clearly:

Don’t think delay means denial.
Don’t think silence means absence.
Don’t think you are forgotten just because nothing is changing yet.

If you are in a “breaking season” right now—where things feel slow, confusing, or even painful—remember this:

👉 God is not punishing you
👉 He is preparing you
👉 He is building you quietly, even when you can’t see it

It’s like when you’re in a process you don’t understand… but later you realize every step had meaning, every delay had purpose, and every closed door was protection.

And one day, when you look back at this same season that once made you cry or overthink, you will smile and say:

“That season didn’t break me… it actually built me.”

 🌸 From Me to You

Today I am not the old Bindu.
Today I choose to see myself as:
a daughter of the Most High.

Because He carried me when I cried.
He sat with me when I isolated myself.
And when I had no words… He still stayed.

Even in my silence, He was present.
Even in my confusion, He was patient.
Even when I didn’t understand anything… He never left.

So my beautiful family, hold this close to your heart:

💛 Trust God in the process
💛 Don’t fear the breaking season
💛 Let Him shape your story in His time
💛 Your pain is never your final chapter

And as you go ahead in your journey, I just want to leave you with this blessing:

May God give you peace in your waiting, strength in your breaking, and clarity in your confusion.
May He remind you in every silent moment that He is working for your good.
May your tears become testimony, your pain become purpose, and your delay become destiny.

And above all, may you never forget—
you are seen, you are loved, and you are never alone.

So tell me honestly…
After reading this… do you still think God is silent, or is He just beautifully working behind the scenes of your life?

God bless you all💓💓

Faith Believes and Speaks

Bindu J